Since Aaron and I were married, we wanted a family right away. After a year of thinking we couldn't have kids, we finally were pregnant! When I took the test, I had mixed feelings. I was more scared than I was excited. We didn't have any insurance and I was terrified of giving birth.
I was 8 weeks along when I was cramping and bleeding heavily. I know, TMI, but I know how some people don't want to talk about these things, but I will. It was late December 30th when I called the ER and they told me to come in to be evaluated. The Dr ran tests on me and did an ultrasound and found that the fetus was 5 weeks 3 days and was still there. The Dr said later that it must've stopped progressing which is why I thought I was further along than it showed. He said I had to be on bed rest but I could miscarry at anytime. Sure enough, 2 hours later, I felt sick to my stomach. I felt like I was going to throw up and pass out at the same time. Then, it happened, I miscarried. I knew then how much I really wanted to have a baby and was scared that it wouldn't happen again.
I was grateful to those who helped me through that difficult time and for a loving Father in Heaven who helped comfort me. I was also comforted by the Dr from the ER who said that 1 in 4 women miscarry their first pregnancy and it's pretty common. I had hope!
2 1/2 months after my miscarriage, I started feeling sick and Aaron kept telling me to take a pregnancy test. I put it off for a week and decided to take it, and it came out positive! I wasn't sure if it was correct, so I took another one at work. That came out positive too! Just to be sure, the next day I took another one and later on that day, another test. They were all positive! I couldn't believe it. I went in to see these midwives in AF where both my sisters-in-law went and after doing an ultrasound, the midwife said, "You're 9 weeks and 5 days pregnant" I was ecstatic!!!
I'm now 15 weeks!! Sometimes I think pregnancy sucks, but even though I've been sick, have headaches, been constipated, bloated, have heartburn, and major gas, I will still be forever grateful for this miracle of life inside me.
